The nanny telling us that SB is “always a little sad” after we’ve left.
Coming to pick up SB and she’s tired in my arms but beams at the nanny.
Being home and SB is not. In the beginning I had a really hard time with this, probably a reminder of how quiet the house was after we came back from the hospital without A&C. It’s better now.
Recently I had to work late and H was processing photos while watching SB – who burst into tears upon seeing a picture of me.
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Conceptionally challenged 
I’ve found that motherhood has beat up my self-esteem–I’m constantly judging myself and wondering if I’m doing the right thing. Sounds like you’ve had your moments, too. So I’ll remind you that you’re doing a great job because your daughter is healthy and happy <3 XOXO
Thank you :) Good point. I hope you’ll remember to be kind to yourself, too.
Separation is heartbreaking. It’s the divide between your mind KNOWING you will see your baby in a reasonable amount of hours, and your body SCREAMING not to leave her. I would like to say it gets better (and it does in some small ways) but for the most part, it’s still difficult for us.
Sending warm hugs, lovely woman.
Thank you. The body screaming, especially now that she actually seems to notice/care that I leave, yes. And thanks for being honest. Many hugs back.
I still feel that way whenever the twins sleep out of the house. I’ve grown accustomed to the quiet during the day (though it’s always hard after a break), but I can’t get over it when I sleep away from them.
oi, sleepovers, I don’t think I’m ready for that yet ;)
No matter what choice we make, there’s always some kind of sacrifice! It sounds like you and SB are doing wonderfully…but I know, so adorable, so hard to be away.
True – work doesn’t give you sad looks when you leave though ;)
Hugs!!!
Thanks Brianna! I hope you and Lucy are doing well, too!
It’s so hard to be away from our kids but it’s good for both of you. It’s a great thing that SB loves her nanny- but don’t worry- you can never be replaced!
Thanks for the reminder! My in-laws visited recently and wanted to take care of SB – she didn’t really agree though, and only calmed down once I arrived. It’s quite humbling, in a way, to be so important for a person.