Going through the familiar stages of grief over this pregnancy that wasn’t, I reached despair. We had been so lucky – all our past transfers had led to pregnancy. (Spoiled, I know.) The big obstacle had seemed to be bringing the embryos to Europe. Now it’s becoming clear that no step is guaranteed.
We have 4 embryos left, or more specifically, 2 pairs. Even if each thaws nicely, if we give each a 25% chance of leading to pregnancy, there’s still a 25% chance I will try with all four and not get pregnant. Sigh. Somehow that’s considerably worse than I thought. Of course I was counting on 6 and on previous success rates…
For now, I need a break, and am happy that SB and I are leaving for family visits tomorrow. H follows on the 23rd. There will be family drama, and a very pregnant SIL with two little girls already. But hopefully also nice and relaxing moments.
Take care, dear readers, in this often challenging season.
Conceptionally challenged 
My heart goes out to you ❤ Of course it’s neccesary to grieve and take some time. But with four embryos left, there is still plenty of hope for the future. XOXO
I agree, still so much hope. I’m sorry this transfer didn’t work, and that the holidays always amplify everything, but I hope you can find some time to relax, and some tasty treats to eat, and some fun to have all the same.
I try to remember that babies aren’t toys on shelves, so someone else having many doesn’t affect your chances. It doesn’t always help but sometimes eases the sting.