2014, October: Strawberry Baby arrives!
much of 2014: an anxiety-fraught but otherwise happy and healthy pregnancy
2014, February: FET - BFP!
2013, October: My waters broke at exactly 20 weeks. Our precious daughters A and C were born a few days later, beautiful and perfect - and too small to survive.
2013, July: two perfect heartbeats
2013, May-June: IVF/ICSI cycle -- BFP!
much of 2011 and 2012: a long break
2010, fall: Odd pain during period/follicular phase, but MRI shows no clear signs of endo. SA says asthenoteratozoospermia (reduced morphology and motility).
2009, winter: Fertility check-up, my numbers seem fine, H's SA shows moderate asthenozoospermia though
2009, fall: Charting shows that I have a luteal phase defect, given progesterone to help with that
2009, summer: Married, ditched BCPs
2005: Endometriosis diagonsis, followed by surgery and drug-induced menopause for 6 months, then progestogen-only BCPs to prevent recurrence
5 thoughts on “stagnation”
This is all tough. So sorry about the cancelled cycles. It’s so hard to feel like things are not going your way and wonder for they ever will.. I’m glad there was at least some communication in the marriage; that sounds encouraging. If you are trying to change a behaviour (this is my teacher self talking) then even a small change is a good change. And it takes time. I will stay hopeful for all of you.
I am so, so sorry for what you’re going through. That is so rough. This is a really great resource that may be an encouragement to you. https://hoperestored.focusonthefamily.com. I’d also love to send you a movie called Fireproof that has been really helpful in my marriage, if you’d like. Love, Kristin
I’m so sorry to hear about the cancelled cycle.
Is there any way that you guys could get in to see a counselor about what is going on in your marriage?
I’m thinking of you often. (I also think sometimes the universe’s message is that things are unreasonably difficult and arbitrary and random.)