
2014, October: Strawberry Baby arrives!
much of 2014: an anxiety-fraught but otherwise happy and healthy pregnancy
2014, February: FET - BFP!

2013, October: My waters broke at exactly 20 weeks. Our precious daughters A and C were born a few days later, beautiful and perfect - and too small to survive.
2013, July: two perfect heartbeats
2013, May-June: IVF/ICSI cycle -- BFP!
much of 2011 and 2012: a long break
2010, fall: Odd pain during period/follicular phase, but MRI shows no clear signs of endo. SA says asthenoteratozoospermia (reduced morphology and motility).
2009, winter: Fertility check-up, my numbers seem fine, H's SA shows moderate asthenozoospermia though
2009, fall: Charting shows that I have a luteal phase defect, given progesterone to help with that
2009, summer: Married, ditched BCPs
2005: Endometriosis diagonsis, followed by surgery and drug-induced menopause for 6 months, then progestogen-only BCPs to prevent recurrence
2004: Engaged!
I like to believe that your girls will be with you forever, watching over you as you honour and remember them. I’m glad that you have these little reminders of their magnificence.
I don’t mean to sound like I think I understand this experience, but it seems like it would be a balm on the aching heart to feel like the whole universe is sending you signs that it’s grieving with you, that your girls are everywhere and in everyone’s heart.
There are so many things that remind me of Jackson, so I am really glad you are finding things to remind you of your girls.
Reminders are what keep us going. Hold on tight to them. xoxo
Thank you all. I’m so glad this doesn’t sound crazy to everyone but me.
And I love the ideas of our girls being with us forever, and the universe grieving with us.
This feels very real to me too. When I see things in pairs I like to think of our boys together even if we’re not with them. I also remember how utterly perfect they were. When I see perfection in nature I am reminded of them and smile a little.
Your girls WILL definitely be with you forever. I love that you are getting signs of them around you.