I have a lot of hopes for you. We’ll move to a new city and start new jobs, and I’m really, really looking forward to that.
Unfortunately, in the reproductive department, my hopes for this year are not so high. Due to aforementioned move, we will not be able to pursue treatments (financially, time-wise, and probably also emotionally it would be stretching things a tad too far). So we’ll keep trying “timed intercourse”, otherwise known as “sex at gun point”. Which hasn’t worked for 18 months in a row now, so how likely is it that it’ll work now? Yeah, I thought so too. So maybe this will be the year we focus on our jobs… not what I planned, but as there are not so many alternatives, perhaps I should try to make the best out of it?
A silver lining is that I might have identified the cause of my beloved burning buttocks pain, and hence how to reduce it. But more on that in another post.
Saying goodbye to 2010 was harder than I thought. We went to church, and I cried and cried. Which I suppose many of the 30 people in the large room noticed. But I found it so hard to praise God when He will not let me get closer to the thing I want the most. Maybe I should have expected this… yet I was surprised by just how much grief I had in me. And felt guilty, and ungrateful, because in parts this had been a very good year for me, especially on the professional side. And I do care about that. (I want it all, you see? And I hope it isn’t too much to ask, but I’m not sure.)
My lovely fellow bloggers, I hope you had a better end of 2010 and start of 2011. I wish you many sticky BFPs for this year, and I promise that I’ll try to catch up on blog reading whenever my planning for all the changes lets me.